My alarm rang at 5am today. I turned it off then checked email, hoping to buy a few minutes of rest before getting ready for boot camp. And that’s when I saw it: this week’s Five Minute Friday writing prompt.
Dare I say that word at 5am has super bad connotations? I instantly reverted back to my “oh, I need you, I can’t live without you” days. Gag.
Or worse, the “I don’t need you.” Okay, so those days weren’t ever articulated, but I lived out the mindset nonetheless. They weren’t really days, though. It was more like years. Many, many years.
Going through a divorce taught me that needing people isn’t such a bad thing (yes, you can laugh at the irony that if I had learned it properly earlier, I might not have been going through a divorce. Feel free to learn from me).
Gone were the days of emulating my favorite superhero, Wonder Woman. I couldn’t keep my stuff together. Shoot, I couldn’t even go to the grocery store without praying God would put a friend in my path so I could make it through without falling to bits.
Way back when, I think I had some sort of belief that because of God’s grace and the many things He’s filled me with, it was an idolatry of sorts to need others. Today, I see it entirely opposite. It’s idolatry to believe I don’t need others. I don the coat of arrogance when I pretend I don’t need the people God places in my life.
Some are lifers and others are for a season, but no matter the number of days our paths intersect, they are there for a purpose. Sometimes its for me to pour more predominantly into them. Other times its the other way around. And most times its just for us to walk this path called life out together–to have a safe ear, a cheerleader when I beat myself up and so much more.
So, yes, this introvert needs people as much as I need air. And I’m not ashamed of that.
What about you? How do you view the word “need”?